Messy Brain

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This story begins, well, when I was three. I won’t force you to ride that whole road with me except as relevant in future posts. We’ll sum it up as: childhood & adolescence = very bad. Result = PTSD.

I have been diagnosed with myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome. There is still a loud audience of people who proclaim this is not a real disorder, that patients are lazy hypochondriacs.

This is far from true and takes so much away from sufferers.

As for me, that may be my diagnosis, but I’m not sure it is. I have many symptoms that aren’t on the lists of symptoms.

This blog is my archeological site, my dig, for confirmation of my diagnosis and/or an understanding of the symptoms that don’t fit the mold.

Knowing You’re Losing Your Mind

While this story begins long ago, today’s Facebook Memories brought this up and it feels like a sign to post it here today as a starting point. More history will be shared in chronological order.

Although I do not claim to fully understand the experience of development of dementia, this is pretty close to it according to my neurologist and my research. My neurologist said I had “functional dementia” for an undefined period of time.

However, a key test in determining a case of dementia is the shrinking of the prefrontal cortex, and mine looked fine. An MRI done in early 2018 showed no abnormalities except for a slightly deviated septum and some compression of cervical vertebrae. That compression, I have been told a dozen times, could not have caused any of my cognitive or odd physical symptoms. (This is something I’ll challenge in a later post.)

The screenshot below demonstrates clearly my state of mind and body a year ago.

Redacted FB Memory - 05.07.2018

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